The Darkness in Me

Back in 2003 I wrote a poem that got published…not only did it get published, but the book it was published in is titled after the poem.  The first stanza reads as follows:
I was a strange little boy, constantly afraid.
Always running to hide, never running to play.
I was afraid of everything.
Scared of the day; scared [...]

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Removing the Grave Clothes

This is my first attempt at a video blog. So, everybody be nice. I might do more of these depending on what the response is. I made this on Monday morning after I attended a “Night of Praise” with Dennis Jernigan at Lakeside Church in Canton, Texas. Something Dennis said during his ministry time really spoke to me and I wanted to share it with you.

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Jesus, the Very Thought of Thee – Good Friday Reflection

As I continue on my Journey, I am confronted daily with the ugliness of my past. I admit, and many of you who read my blog know, that I still struggle with guilt over the things I’ve done. Frankly, asking and accepting God’s forgiveness has been far easier than asking it of myself. In the beginning I would let myself be bogged down in guilt — there are days when that still happens. But, I have learned that during these times to take my eyes off myself and focus on the face of Christ.

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“Christian” Know-it-all’s

These sisters and brothers call themselves “discerning”, but their discernment always seems to lead them to the same conclusion — they are right and you are wrong! I won’t go so far as to call them arrogant, although I do believe that their faith in their own understanding is rooted in pride, but I will call them unflinchingly convinced in their own righteousness!

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A Casual Relationship With the Truth

All the rumors you’ve heard about me are true. The answer to your question is yes….

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Sin and Redemption, pt. III

By the beginning of 1999 I found myself in a small pentecostal church on the back roads of Van Zandt County, Texas. The pastor at this church believed that God wanted him to hold church services every single night of that year. Somehow, I started playing the piano for these services. For the better part of six months I was in that church, on that piano bench every single night without missing a single service.

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Sin and Redemption, Part II

…from the moment that pastor told me (us) I had reached the “age of accountability” and I would be held responsible for my actions from that moment on I had been terrified. I was terrified to do or say anything for fear I’d be struck down by God.

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Sin and Redemption, Part I

That summer, however, opened a whole new world to me — a world I wasn’t sure I wanted to know about — a world of anxious days and sleepless nights. That summer changed how I looked at life and death. That summer changed how I looked at me. The things I thought I had control over looked completely chaotic after that summer and I often wonder, even today, if I have yet regained control of them.

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